(December 30, 2010, 5:10pm)
(Yeah, it's been MONTHS since I've posted on here...shame on me...)
Since I have 3 hours up here 37000 feet above ground heading towards Washingtion, DC (AGAIN!), I might as well take this time to debrief on 2010, AKA the year of 21.
I must admit, without too many bells and whistles, this year STILL came and went and left its mark. I've incorporated the perks (and the responsible stuff) of being a legal adult into my everyday routine. Seeing new places (DC), meeting new people, I've started allowing myself this year to be...myself, and I'm growing in "me" everyday. Of course, with any growth is going to come a little bit of pain, especially for THIS momma's boy. Whether I was ready for it or not, it's clear I am in sole control of Thalyn's destiny. There's that word - destiny. My dictionary calls destiny the "hidden power believed to control what will happen in the future". I can dig that definition, although that power - that anybody can wield - isn't so much "hidden" as it is "untapped", reliant on the individual to mold it as little or as much as possible.
(Selah)
"My dreams are what I'm racing with, but you can see I'm pacing it, so that I'm always chasing it." - Drake, "Fireworks"
I have a desire to have a multi-faceted career, incorporating my forthcoming psychology degree with my growing hobbies/interests in graphic design and photography. Not to mention that I might end up in my own pulpit before it's all said and done *chuckles to self*. I was well aware of these desires this time last year, but because of my uncertainty of how to make it happen, I did not push myself towards success. 365 days pass, thus, staying stagnant because of fear, and growing in frustration as time went on and on. But, it's funny how frustration one day can turn into resolve to correct what's wrong. Just had to refocus my energy. I honestly still don't know how the puzzle will fit together, but that'll be the journey of it all as my bro, Khyle would say it. If I have my way, 2011 will be a continuation of me deconstructing fear and doubt, dogma and tradition, and that lingering self-esteem issue and operating instead in my inner greatness. I
know it sounds like an abstract goal for some, but greatness is as real as it gets, once it's birthed in the mind.
(Selah)
"So as a man thinketh in his heart [that he is great], so is he [great]." - Proverbs 23:6
I think we're about to land soon, so I need to wrap this up. I must thank every person that I've interacted with this year. From the laughs and the gags, to the 4-letter words and the tears, I've learned a lesson from you that has influenced who I be now. But it doesn't stop here! Destiny awaits, so I need not tarry too long. Stay tuned...
