Got Patience?

Waiting…I need to learn how to do that.

[Friday, March 11, 2010]

Some of MOST of these self-improvements I have been working on require time and patience, both of which I feel like I don’t have. I feel, sometimes, that I have a window of time to get certain things (pertaining to my destiny) accomplished or else I’ll miss my season. I tend to rush myself to get better and put pressure on myself because of that. The problems are probably all in my head.

In English class recently, we studied Tennessee Williams’ The Glass Menagerie. One of the main characters, Laura, has a limp that is corrected by a leg brace. Along with her shyness, this brace made her quite insecure. She was set up on a date with a secret high school crush of hers that worked with her older brother. She recalls how she felt her leg brace was so loud and clunky, making her feel embarrassed during class, sitting in the back and not speaking up, while admiring her crush, Jim, from afar. Jim, however, brings to her attention that he never noticed the limp or the sound of the brace back then, and that due to her inferiority complex, she was magnifying a rather minute issue.

I have been in Laura’s shoes on many occasions, feeling overly self-conscious in certain settings, when likely, I’m not sticking out as much as I feel I am. I have more control over the situation than I act, and once I am more self-assured and confident in myself, my societal insecurities will eventually fade. But like I said, it’s gonna take time! So…looks like I gotta stop rushing the process. Patience…sigh…